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it's been like afew months since i last blogged? hahaha. the last time i remembered was after my common test. well, this time is after my prelims. what can i say, prelims are just so so? my chances of passing are as usual? hahaha.
i must say. i was really touched to see a card for me during my prelims! my og made me a card. i love you og 6. i know your promos are reaching soon. i will never ever forget anyone of you. even if you're in jj or not. you'll always be in my heart.
during the prelims, i just feel emotional or rather feel like isolating myself and i wanna be alone. i have not idea why. sometimes quiet-ness is what i need. maybe i'm just fickle, dont know what i want.
mr chai asked me where i wanna go IF i make it into uni, i was indecisive at first, so i told him i wanted get into business either in SMU or NTU. he said that i needed to have at least a B B B to get in. it hit me quite hard. i'm still far away from my goal. my chances are slim. i'm confused. hais. not all jc students are bright. there'll always be exceptions like me. i dont know. i'm drifting to no where. physically i'm okay, inside i don't know how am i. i'm lost. i need peace and attain a inner balance in me! hahaha. sounds like a psycho.
kinda fell in love with this song recently.

Cyndi Lauper - Time after time

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Caught up in circles confusion -
Is nothing new
Flashback - warm nights -
Almost left behind
Suitcases of memories,
Time after -

Sometimes you picture me -
I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me, I can't hear
What you've said -
Then you say - go slow -
I fall behind -
The second hand unwinds

Chorus:
If you're lost you can look - and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you - I'll be waiting
Time after time

After my picture fades and darkness has
Turned to gray
Watching through windows - you're wondering
If I'm OK
Secrets stolen from deep inside
The drum beats out of time -

Chorus:
If you're lost...

You said go slow -
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds -

Chorus:
If you're lost...
...Time after time
Time after time
Time after time
Time after time